when I feel like dying I get this huge urge to call up this one boy. he’s pretty much a slightly-less-toxic version of that guy who I can’t get off my mind. I rarely end up dialing him, but when I do.. his voice is so comforting and he puts me in this great mood. he sounds as genuinely excited to hear my voice over the receiver as I am to hear his, and there’s nothing like having him say how much he misses me. I feel loved and I feel wanted when we talk and it’s priceless to me. he’s states away and I’m just waiting for the holiday for him to come back home and eat cereal with me.