December 2011
2 posts
don't eat.
you know how that day’s coming? the one when there won’t be enough water and food to support the general population here? and if it’s coming sooner than later? I’m scared of what would happen to the people I love, but the sickest part of me isn’t worried one single bit about being stripped of access to basic calories.
I’ll regret thinking like this.
November 2011
12 posts
november was a tease
remembering how good we had it just for a weekend. take me home.
“I am a happy camper so I guess I’m doing something right. Happiness is like a...”
– Henry David Thoreau (via sweetannasour)
when I feel like dying I get this huge urge to call up this one boy. he’s pretty much a slightly-less-toxic version of that guy who I can’t get off my mind. I rarely end up dialing him, but when I do.. his voice is so comforting and he puts me in this great mood. he sounds as genuinely excited to hear my voice over the receiver as I am to hear his, and there’s nothing like having...
slept sixteen hours, I have the shakes and I woke up just in time for my 6PM shift at work. I just want to go back to bed for the rest of my life.
I really need to stop craving sugar. it's been out...
I don’t have a scale in my house. I feel bigger than ever but I just went down a size in my bra band. I hate myself every day and I want my hair back. it’s fucked up, but I won’t let myself have it until I’m smaller. sometimes death sounds fun.
October 2011
38 posts
experiment
higher than regular calorie diet and higher physical activity this week.
next week minimal activity and minimal calorie intake.
I miss yoga class so much. it’s not the same with all these people running around the house being noisy. too bad I’m a broke bitch.
Avocado Fries
health-heaven:
Ingredients: Oil For Frying 2 Avocados 2 Eggs, beaten 1 and 1/3 Cup Bread Crumbs 1 Teaspoon Lemon Pepper 1/2 Teaspoon Salt 1/4 Teaspoon Cumin In a medium-sized bowl, mix together the bread crumbs, lemon pepper, salt and cumin. Set it aside. Cut the avocados in half and then slice them vertically into 4 inch by 1 inch wedges. Set them aside. Heat the vegetable oil to 335 degrees...
Apple Pie Oatmeal
health-heaven:
1 apple, cored and chopped (skins on) 1 cup water 1/2 cup quick cooking oats 1/2 tsp ground cinnamon 1/4 tsp ground nutmeg Bring the water to a boil in a small saucepan. Then add the oats, apple, cinnamon, and nutmeg. The heat gets adjusted to low and the oatmeal is simmered for 2-3 minutes. That’s all there is to it. Serve it with a splash of soy milk.
Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Apple Sandwiches
health-heaven:
{1 apple makes 2-3 sandwiches depending on how thick you slice your apples} apple – sliced & cores removed approximately 1 tablespoon per sandwich peanut butter approximately 1 teaspoon per sandwich chocolate chips 1. Spread peanut butter onto apple circle. Sprinkle chocolate chips on top. Place another apple circle on top. Press gently to seal. 2. Continue until you have...
7 Weirdly Amazing Things to Add to Smoothies
health-heaven:
Tofu: It makes smoothies taste really creamy and adds extra protein! Cinnamon: It adds a subtle sweetness and tastes so good bonus, it can help stabilize your blood sugar to keep you feeling full longer. Avocado: Surprising ingredient? Maybe, but it’s really good, and you will love how creamy it makes your fave smoothie. Dates: Cut back on sweetener and use dates to sweeten up...
Vegan Banana Chocolate Chip Cookies
health-heaven:
¼ cup of vegetable oil 1 cup raw organic sugar 2 teaspoons vanilla 2 ¼ cup oat flour 1 teaspoon baking soda ½ teaspoon salt 1 cup dark chocolate chips ¾ cup mashed overripe banana (≈1 large banana) Preheat oven to 350°.Combine all ingredients in a medium sized bowl.On a non-stick cookie sheet (or line a cookie sheet with parchment paper), scoop batter with a medium sized ice...
I sometimes wish I had taken before pictures when I was at my high weight. but then I see photos of myself on facebook from back then and I can’t look without feeling sick. I want to see the reality of how much progress I’ve made without hating who I used to be by proxy of my current self.
and I haven’t weighed myself since I’ve moved. maybe I’ll diet harder for the next few days and get a good number when I visit home over the weekend.
I've been in such a depressing mood
today didn’t help at all, being around the most negative person I have the pleasure of knowing. turns out I care about them way too much to function properly around them anymore. we used to be such great friends and I fell in love and somewhere down the line something pushed us apart. funny thing is, it isn’t the high number of women he has shameless casual sex with, it isn’t the...
it's like I can't look at any reflective surface...